你终于说出口 其实你早就已经不爱我

为什么要低着头 你知道这玩笑骗不到我

可是这不是玩笑 是要逃避你离开我的理由

我还能做什么 你已经不爱我

我一直都爱着你 难道这还不够

我还要做什么 你才不离开我

我知道你已无心再继续看着我 一心想离开我

我终于也说出口 其实很爱你但从没认真说过

或许是我的错 太在乎你却只放在心中

不要问我为什么 因为爱你这就是我的理由

我还能做什么 你已经不爱我

我一直都爱着你 难道这还不够

我还要做什么 你才不离开我

我知道你已无心再继续看着我 没什么需要被原谅

我笑的有些牵强 你知道我总是能够假装不难过

我不想看你那么累 多希望再给我机会

再搂着我的手 握住的只是风

还能做什么 你已经不爱我

我一直都爱着你 难道这还不够

我还要做什么 你才不离开我

我知道你已无心再继续看着我 一心想离开我

heh,
got my braziliano praia sandals
wasn't the colour that i wanted actually,
wanted black & pink,
but when i tried it on,
it was too girly LOL.
got white and green in the end.
wasn't what i really liked either.
hahahaha
but what the heck man,
at least i got it :D

heya peeps,
im not sure are there people reading my blog LOL.
my counter keeps rising but tags ain't appearing LOL.
maybe because i never put that leaving a tag is a must?
hahahas,

well,
many things happened since i last blogged.
had a church service by a special pastor Reverend Lee Stoneking
i've gotta have faith!

on monday,
did FAA duty
was supposed to be posted to outpost but didn't cause i dun have name tag uh.
haha,
so did warehouse in the end
wasn't that slack as it was
but at least it was fun.

then was tuesday
baked cake for the upcoming class chalet
it was fun
hahaha :D
glad the cake was alright
had a few friends ton at my house at night also

then was wed.
went for BB in the morning
was tiring but at least fun.
rushed home to change and go for class chalet
class chalet was damn fun
and im starting to miss it.
at least managed to get some nice rest for the previous day when i toned.
also managed to think through what i've done throughout this year.

i got a drink and walked to the beach alone.
sat alone and thought through what i've done
all my emotions, my work, my cca, my very dear grandma who passed away and of course you know what la.
thought through everything throughout this year.
and i've found that i've really been walking the wrong direction.
i've gotta get back on my right path,
both in my studies and my social life.
well,
at least i've managed to sort out everything right i guess.
now its time for me to put that things back into place.

well,
that's all i could say for now
and i'm off to play Final Fantasy dissidia! [:
ciao~

and i'm starting to think it was all a very very big boo-boo.


Listed below is the lyrics for superman.
im thinking that the song quite depicts what i am now probably.

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird...I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home
I'll never see
It may sound absurd...but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won't you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me
Up, up and away...away from me
It's all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy...or anything...
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
It's not easy to be me inside of me,
inside of me,inside of me
Only a man looking for her dream
It's not easy to be me

heyhey,
this few days quite fun
thats why no time blog
hahahaha
:D :D
actually also dunno what to post LOL.
hahahahaha.

well too all my FRIENDS who are currently in love,
gd luck to ya.
make sure to last long ah,
hahahahahaha :D
i'll be there for anyone who needs me LOL.
hahahahaha :D
cause i'll always play the supportive role :D
i'll nvr get to play the main lead. LOL.
hahahaha.

well, that's all for now.
tata~


and kudos to ORCHID PARK WIND ORCHESTRA
good job on the performance!
esp 3s3 people! :D
P.S nadiah's expression was funny LOL.

heya,
happen to chance by the movie "Music and Lyrics"
so decided to watch it.
its quite a nice movie,
and the song was very nice.
so decided to change the music uh.
haha:D
well,
off to the cinema to catch a movie,
alone probably?
hahaha :D

hey,
another fufilling day,
hahaha:D
today did delivery,
was alright,
many slacking periods here and there.
few households weren't at home so they couldn't recive the bags uh.
maybe some other days then they'll receive.

finally,
tmr a rest day.
a public holiday for me to rest! BOOYAH!

well, nth to say le.

我只想用力地对着那大海呐喊着我的心事。
suddenly it feels all too empty.

heyhey,
today was a fun day !
had meeting early in the morning,
but the meeting managed to wake me up uh.
had lots of laughter here and there.

then had lunch at KFC.
eat till very full.
then went for CIP at Hinghwa methodist church.

we had to pack all the PA bags first before delivering them to the needy.
it was fun throughout the whole process.
then we had break.
we all took out our psp and played like siao LOL.
hahahaha :D

then it was dinner time.
dinner was good though.
:D

then was delivery
was tiring,
but at least fufilling.

one household wasn't at home and we passed that house.
i sure hope that family would be back tomoro to take the bags uh,
then we went down once we delivered everything.
then we happen to pass by an uncle.
he has been receiving it for almost every year since it started.
but this time he happen to miss it as it was outside uh,
then he came to us,
but we couldn't do anything.
cause it wasn't under our charge.

felt sad for a moment there,
i sure hope that old man gets his bag uh.
looks like he needs it badly.
really wanted to help,
but i couldn't do anything.
luckily,
my friend told me that they delievered the bag in the end.
i was relieved then.

took the charted bus home,
was playing PSP again on the bus.
hahahaha.
then went back home.
bathed, and now blogging.


and so,
i've decided to wait uh.
no matter what's the outcome,
i'll still decide to wait.
and i'll wait for that very day to come.
and i sure hope it will come.

woah,
im dead tired.
but still posting here uh.
cause quite a few things to say uh.
but shall not say in details
cause sian. hahaha :D


oh ya, stayed at home for a full day for wed.
woah, first time uh.
hahaha:D

well had BBSGB for the past 2 days.
was very tiring but at least fufilling.
good to see that Singaporeans are still willing to donate and share despite the recession period.
:D :D :D
first day did warehouse duty.
there weren't much goods for that day.
but the bags were filled and there were leftovers which was good!
but was hectic.
7 FAA's had to control a massive squad uh.
very hectic LOL.
but still,
job was managed to be done.
thank GOD for that :D

then went back home in Sir James van,
he treated us for dinner uh.
a good captain! :D
then went home,
bathed, teevee and slept.

woke up in the early morning again.
went to BBHQ.
this time we went earlier to prevent being late again
cause of someone uh.
hahaha:D
then this time i was given outpost.
much more slack i would say,
we were doing out post at Main Box (Orchard Road)
but was very very very very very x987654321 hot sial..
we were all slacking here and there but still was doing our work.
we called alot people come,
but only one came.
and that is Joel Ong.
lets put our hands together for him! :D
lucky people donated.
few donated money but was alot.
few donated foodstuff.
one donated 90 footballs.
hahaha, good soul.
training the future Young Lions?
hahahas :D

well,
went back at ard 9 i think.
haven had dinner at that time yet.
then went back,
bathed and had dinner.
got PS-ed by kenneth.
sian.

well, managed to see the sad side of Singapore
and the kind side of Singapore
and the bad side of Singapore.
that gives me quite alot to think of myself uh..

this few days has also been reflecting on myself.
i'm not sure should i carry on waiting,
or should i stop from here.
been waiting for ard 1 month plus already.
i seriously dont mind waiting for even a year,
but is that worthwhile?
i also not sure about myself.
in a state of confusion uh.
maybe i should give up uh,
cause there ain't any response uh..
maybe im thinking too much myself.
shouldn't have stated waiting the first place
hais.
someone help me answer?

LOL, nth to do.
haha,
random post
LOL.

blahblahblahblah.
done.
LOL.

PS ah zhehuan,
my recorder time off,
so ard 10 mins gone like that.
hahahaha:D
no worries,
next 2 episodes wont like that one.

wa,
i think i getting the flu bug LOL.
FASHION SURNAME FLU?
流行性感冒。LOL.
very the cold.
hahaha:D

sian
next 3 days got FAA project
serving 3 days of BBSGB
from 0845 to 2130
sian ah, 12 hours and 45 mins.
LOL.
must come support me ah! :D

hahaha,
that's all for now LOL.

P.S ILY,ILSMandi'llknowthati'llbetherewaiting foryou.

eh,
this few days time has been quite easy to kill
kept going out with my good buddies and time just fly past.
hahahaha:D

ytd was quite a fun but tiring day.
went to marina square first to get our early dinner at 4plus,
then walked ard marina square.
i'm definetly going to get one of those badtastebears i swear! :D
then,
went to walk ard suntec city.
the shops were as usual,
then went to raffles city shopping center,
went to walk ard then decided to go home le, cause 8 already.
and we were all dead beat.
then we train-ed home and sat in the new train which was cool!
the map on the door there very bright and cool.
hahahaha :D

then reached home,
not a single person in sight,
i went to bathe, then went to watch teevee.
parents came,
had supper,
then watched dvd then went to sleep,

now i just woke up not long ago LOL.
nth to do so decided to blog?
hahha:D

anyways, gonna get a hair cut,
damn sian.
but no choice.
who call me become FAA..
hahaha:D

well, thats all for now..

P.S : I've made a wish and i sure hope that wish would happen but i doubt it will..

ciaossu~
i'm here actually to tell william can i don't do that quiz.
i do twice before le then very the sian... hahaha:D

anyway,
this few days keep watching katekyo hitman reborn.
then finally chased up with the current episode le.
now nth to watch so watching X-Family and The Legend of Brown Sugar Chivalries.
i bought the dvd of The Legend of Brown Sugar Chivalries LOL,
and costed me 44++
sian..

oh ya, my sis got autograph and handshakes of 棒棒堂 LOL.
cool eh,
she went to IMM for the autograph session hahaha.


sian, nth to post.
shall post random lyrics of the song i keep hearing.

歌曲：最爱还是你
歌手：唐禹哲
专辑：终极一家

没开口的话怎样才能懂
我好想把画面倒带回头
你留在我心中熟悉的表情
每个温暖纯白的记忆穿越了距离

拥挤的人潮没有人知道
我偷偷想你嘴角就会笑
不要说对不起也不要问原因
就让世界不停的向前
别忘记从前

最爱还是你这是我的决定
像宇宙相对的星互相吸引
慢慢就会靠近
慢慢就会忘记

还是要爱你
时间会证明
我爱你的勇气
牵着你的手才知道是永久

这一次我放弃了所有
只为能再与你相遇
一辈子不放手