LOLS, long time no blog le.
hahas,
today had bb in the morning,
damn tiring i would say,
alot people sure agree with me one,
the drill training so hiong sia,
Sherman still say no heavy activities,
haiyo,
then was aq simulation,
was tiring,
but still alright.
26km in under 3hours
that would mean 52 km in under 6hours,
which means that if the aq starts at 7, then we would probably end by 1.
yay! that would ensure us a top 20 position.
haha,
but must keep constant uh.
im sure with consisten training,
both teams would be able to make it!,
hahas.

and geliang bought the same braziliano praia sandals with me LOL,
haha.
gayness manzxzx,
hahahas,

well,
shan't blog about other stuff already,
cause always same routine.
haha, but something nice happened yesterday.
hahahahaha,

and im a step closer to reaching my ipod touch goal,
but still a step further,
now only have 310,
+50 dollars frm my sis,
that makes 360.
but haven reach 388!
ahh,
im starving myself like mad just to buy it LOL,
hahahaha,
well,
that's all uh.

eh, had a great time yesterday catching up with friends.
had school normally first.
then ended with a "not so enriching but crappy" lifeskills,
with all the funny funny sentences,
and nadiah's "there are some things in life that i can't control, so i ... bought a REMOTE CONTROL!!!" hahahahha :D

then was lunch break,
walking around finding friends.
had BB.
it was tiring but at least worth the training.
hahaha,
then had basketball session,
for awhile before heading home.

bathed, msn and went out with friends.
gaowei, kokkiong, zhehuan and anthony.
had LJS first.
talking bout relationship, was damn hilarious and fun.
then after went to play in arcade.
was okay,
then went to park to share "secrets"
haha, shared many many deep dark secrets,
hahaha.
was very fun,
at the same time managed to catch up with each others life.
zhehuan, i have your secret safe with me till you decide to tell alrights,
hahahaha :D

went home, bathed and slept.
then is today.
woke up at 745
ate breakfast,
called gaowei and went for BB.
went to northbrooks to play streetsoccer.
the weather was so dam hot,
affecting my performance maybe?
hahaha.
then had an aq route race.
it was a short route.
but lucky our team managed to chiong all the way.
and we won in the end.
haha,

then dismissed,
went to northpoint.
wanted to eat with the bb boys at first.
but wasnt that hungry,
went library to find javier, jerr and ridwan to play psp.
then after 1-2 hours was damn hungry.
so went to eat at foodcourt.
food was average,
then walked home,

bathed,
slept till 6 plus.
went sun plaza for dinner.
ate chicken rice.
then walked ard,
went home.
watching teevee currently.
and i need a knee support cause my old injury is coming back,
ah!
well,
thats all.
hahaha :D

well, i guess its time for me to move on?
even my friends are telling me to do so,
probably i will,
probably i wont.
till i find a new reason for who i am made for,
it'll still be you.

haha,
nth to write.
been rather alone these days,
haha.
thats good maybe?
maybe not?
hahaha,
dont know why,
dont know how.
hahaha,
i'm a retard,
what to do?
hahaha,
:D
well,
one term is passing by very soon.
shall buck up sooner or later.
maybe term 2 1 hour of study daily,
then slowly add 2.
its thrice as much as my usual study time,
i think i should be able to catch up,
hahaha.
since my usual is only borderline.
putting in thrice the effort should triple my mark.
hahaha,
teachers complaining i shouldn't be getting the scores im getting now.
haha,
reflecting on myself too.
:D
hahaha,
need more alone time in the night,
whether i'm jogging,
or i'm just sitting alone.
hehoha.
well,
gotta reflect on my own actions,
haha.
wasted days, month and years already.
time i really should study.
haha,
everytime i'm just building castles in the air,
hahaha.
well,
that's about all.
i don't want to be all quiet, lonely and stuff.
but the things around me are causing me to.
i really need to change.
for the good.

i know you might be seeing this,
might be not.
but just so you know,
there's just something that pulls me to you.
i really dont know what it is.
but yeah,
i wont change much.
probably,
i just don't know why,
you're the reason i'm single,
the reason i've changed my personality,
the reason i've changed the way i speak,
the reason that i've stopped using vulgarities,
the reason that i study,
the reason for everything,

true to it,
Friday the 13th was one of my worst day ever,
my phone got confiscated for no apparent reason,
i broke showerhead at home,
got scolded by parents for nothing,
and it was the night that my feelings died.

apparently,
i don't know what was happening,
i was alright for the first 2 periods,
then i suddenly turned sad,
felt hard to cheer up,
dont know why, dont know how,
then my phone got confiscated.
f-ed up,

then my toe gotten a little worse,
couldn't go for training,
then went to play soccer,
can't even get a goal,
kicked the ball out twice,
hit the post 3 times.

then went home to shower,
apparently the showerhead just dropped and cracked,
and i got blamed for it,
just the right time uh,

thereafter went to pen down my feelings on a piece of yellow paper for someone,
then went to library to get materials for my F&N research,
couldn't find any book,
suddenly my feelings all just seem to disappear,
and that yellow paper was left undelivered,
then went home,
took the extremely long way home,
walked for an hour,
my toe was bleeding literally and my ankle was sprained,
then finally reached home,

havent had anything to eat since morning,
wanted to find sth to eat but couldnt,
so i skipped eating,
sudden headache forced me to sleep uh,
and that was my Friday the 13th,
what a great day uh,

then was valentine's day,
my alarm clock wasn't working,
almost overslept,
rushed to BB,
finally something that was alright,
thereafter went for lunch,
forgot to call my mother to ask her whether to eat out or home,
then i ordered my food already,
then remembered to call her,
in the end had to give up my food and go home to eat,

then went home,
bathed,
changed and went out,
everything seemed to be alright thereafter,
yuki yaki was fully booked,
so end up eating Han's,
then went to KBox,
went in without asking the price,
was 35 dollars per pax,
like wth man,
we were short of 200 dollars plus,
lucky Gaowei was there with extra money to help,
our big benefactor uh,
haha,
then went home late at night,
luckily managed to catch on the last train.
went home,
bathed,
teevee and slept,


well,
gotta say,
life is really "suay" at some points,
and things can really just come and go,
like my 4 months of waiting,
all just died and gone on that one day,
maybe that feeling might come back and torment me someday,
but till that day comes,
i believe that my heart will stay lonely,

ahh,
Valentines day is only 2 days away.
in a dilema,
but the odds are on that i should.
well,
i'll go for it?
its not the first time that i've fallen anyway,
so why not?
hahaha,
Valentines shopping is really hard,
cant seem to get the right thing.
there's only one more day left,
what should i get?

and you are the one that i want,
and i'm going for it,
anything's better than nothing right?
so here goes nothing,


F.Y.I, tmr is FRIDAY THE 13th, BLACK FRIDAY!
ahhh!

Valentine's day is coming closer,
might not have any plans again.
hahahaha,
well,
see Friday lorh.
see got people ask me out not.
hahaha,
so bhb.
no lah,
scared kena reject
hahahahaha LOL.
hahahahaha,
ouhkays,
i'm going crazy le.
hahahahaha.

For those people with dates,
wish ya'all best of luck ya!
rmb to stay long and love long hor!
hahaha,

and for those who are asking people out, (gaowei this is for you)
dont be afraid alright,
just go for it man!
take it as an experience.
dont be scared of rejection,
its all part and parcel of life.
trust me,
i understand
hahahaha :D

recently got fingers pointed at for the accusation of a playboy.
i got accused of being a playboy?!
yes, i may be seen with gals some times and do flirt with them.
but i've always stuck to who i've liked alright.
if hanging out with gals or going out with them alone and you're being called a playboy,
then all of us would be guilty right?
like duh,
you cant probably spend your whole secondary school life with just your same sex right?
might as well go to a single gender school,
dont go mixed schools then.
even so,
people still have contacts with the opposite sex right?
if i've liked someone for few months already and its not enough to prove my devotedness,
then i dont know what will.

me PLAYBOY? humph,
curse you whoever has his/her fingers pointed at me.

haha,
got new song salim introduced me
not a bad song.
lyrics as followed.

I can wait forever - Simple Plan

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there its hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesnt matter but you feel so far away
And I cant lie, every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face
And I…Cuz I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
And I can wait…I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When youre gone, it wont stop bleeding
I can wait…I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
Its like every time I turn around, I see your face
The thing I miss the most is, waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, man I wish that I could stay
And I cant lie, every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face
And I…Cuz I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
And I can wait…I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
When you call my heart stops beating
When youre gone it wont stop bleeding
I can wait…I can wait,I can wait forever(I can wait, I can waait)
I know it feels like forever
I guess its just the price I gotta pay
When I come back home
To feel your touch, Makes it better
Until that day theres nothing else I can do
And I just cant take it!

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
And I can wait…I can wait,I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
I can wait…I can wait,I can wait forever

I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever..

haha, got some reasons to this song also lah.
hahaha :D

LOL,
hahahaha.
whoever belived the previous post got FOOLED! :D

haha,
i alone at home dam sian lah.
thats why try to write out emo post.
hahahahahahaha,
damn sian lah.
actually some parts real lah.
you should know what lah :D
spending lonely valentines again.
haha:D
and my chinese is degrading like siao man.
sianzxzxzx.

i hope i do not spend another lonely valentines again.

hey there,
i'm feeling rather bored.
so doing random stuffs at home.

even though i may seem to have many friends
but i'm actually quite lonely.
i do not really have best friend or a girlfriend
but i have many many great friends.

my life usually revolves around my home, school, parents and friends.
and when i'm home.
its usually alone.
when i'm out with parents,
i just have dinner with them then wander off alone aimlessly till we go home.
in school,
sometimes i do walk around alone.
dont know why,
but i seem to prefer having quiet time now and then.
and it really seems to bother me and i dont know why.
and now most of my friends are all piled with homework.
and that's eating up our bonding time.

Relationships are another thing.
its a teenage killer.
it seems that one cant pick him/herself up from the hole that he/she's fallen into.
or the wound can never really seem to close or heal.
dramas are a fantasy and can never really happen in life but people are always constantly saying that how great it would be if they were like them.
like people usually says, if only fantasies were a reality
me myself have been through this.
i've fallen into a deep deep hole and cant pick myself up.
everytime i seem to be reaching the end of the hole,
i seem to drop back into it.
and i've been there since september 2008
i really need help.
i really need to change my life.

GOD, can you help me?
can you give me more prominent hints?