hey there,
i'm feeling rather bored.
so doing random stuffs at home.

even though i may seem to have many friends
but i'm actually quite lonely.
i do not really have best friend or a girlfriend
but i have many many great friends.

my life usually revolves around my home, school, parents and friends.
and when i'm home.
its usually alone.
when i'm out with parents,
i just have dinner with them then wander off alone aimlessly till we go home.
in school,
sometimes i do walk around alone.
dont know why,
but i seem to prefer having quiet time now and then.
and it really seems to bother me and i dont know why.
and now most of my friends are all piled with homework.
and that's eating up our bonding time.

Relationships are another thing.
its a teenage killer.
it seems that one cant pick him/herself up from the hole that he/she's fallen into.
or the wound can never really seem to close or heal.
dramas are a fantasy and can never really happen in life but people are always constantly saying that how great it would be if they were like them.
like people usually says, if only fantasies were a reality
me myself have been through this.
i've fallen into a deep deep hole and cant pick myself up.
everytime i seem to be reaching the end of the hole,
i seem to drop back into it.
and i've been there since september 2008
i really need help.
i really need to change my life.

GOD, can you help me?
can you give me more prominent hints?